There used to be days when I used to wake up and see your beautiful face and consider myself the most fortunate man alive. Your smile was so bright and plentiful that it could even make the birds chirp and flowers bloom. In an instant, you would fill my darkness with your light. Your warm glow would me walk a little lighter and smile a little more that day. You gave me the right to exist, you made me what I am, you gave life to everything means anything to me.

It breaks my heart to think that we have grown so apart over the last few years. I know you are still there for me every day. You never gave up hope, you still believed in me, you tell yourself that its just a chemical reaction that keeps your love burning. I could not keep my end of the bargain. I have been a slacker, a self-serving drone, a meandering fool. I never forgot you though, I think about you all the time. Ok, not all the time, but at least once every morning and on most days, once in the evening. I have been preoccupied with being preoccupied, I have become what your eyes always told me not to become.

I was not able to make time for you, I was so busy pursuing an extra dime that I could spare nothing for you. I am no longer there to see you wake up and I am still slogging in my office when you are ready to wind down. We live in different worlds now. I occassionally see your friend at night, but she only gives me back a blank stare when I am lucky. Life is not the same without you. But I will make that effort to reconnect with you. In fact, I want to see at least twice next week. Think of it as a first date all over again if you want, but I will not have my expensive cologne or my nice jacket; I will be there as myself, as a simple soul yearning to see your smile again. Because I miss you, oh sun.